andria

be careful what you wish for, i guess

you still cross my mind from time to time

i miss you. i love you. endlessly.

if i do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead

im so very fucking sorry for existing. i didnt choose this. im so sorry for being so stupid. i dont want to be doing this. im not ready. how the fuck can i be with someone else if it makes me cry every day how much i still love you? they say that time heals everything,, but i dont feel it fading away at all. i still remember how it all came back together, just to fall apart again. i love you so much. im longing to have what we had. oh, but i hate you. theres nothing i wish more than to have never had found you, to never have seen you, to never have touched you. you earned my trust. yes, it took time, but you did it. no one has done it since then. and you threw it all away.

ive lost my ability to write and i blame you because when you left, you dragged my inspiration out with you.