a social life is a blessing given by God.

    I haven't done anything productive in about a week.
     All I have done is make people angry and sad and confused and ashamed, but also a little happy. This isn't supposed to be a little white girl's blog post that goes something like "I'm a waste of space, nobody needs me, I only make people feel bad". Although I do feel like a waste of space a lot of the time, I believe that no one is worthless, and that everything has a purpose for existing. Everyone has an effect on other people, it's just that the effect I've had on the people around me in the last week hasn't been very good.
     Now, about the title. In the past few days I have noticed that my social life is developing very quickly and that now, at this age, I am doing all the things I wanted to do about 2 years ago. And this isn't what I want anymore. I drink, smoke, stay over at other poeple's houses, go out as much as I want, meet everyone that I want to meet. I don't want to do this anymore. I think my soul and mind have developed a lot in the past few years. I'm not saying I'm grown up now, because Im not. But I am growing spiritally and it's becoming noticeable.
    ps, the title isnt finished - A social life is a blessing given by God, but developed by yourself.