dont

it hurts to see other people in pain
ecspecialy people whom i look up to
it reminds me that we arent that different
just distant




it hurts so much
to know that ill never have you
but i still love you

i think its getting better, and im still getting sadder. its just the one situation thats getting better. i dont think i want him anymore. at all. i think my brain is just used to blaming everything on him, thinking about him, missing him and loving him. but i dont think i feel all those things anymore. i just think i do.

im so sorry to everyone that has ever gone through this. love is evil. so why do i keep chasing it, still? oh, im not. im developing my opinions on sexuality and thats okay.

i need to eat a lot less
i still have that annoying little bitch of a thought at the back of my head that im already eating small amounts. i need to get rid of that damn voice. i need to eat less. need. not want.

ps i cant sleep much